I've become a fan of saying too much. In the past i've been super cautious before confronting someone; but then I turned out to be non-confrontational and avoided things that needed to be said. This all changed when I started college. I didn't want any more opportunities to slip through my fingertips; I was tired of letting things bottle up inside of me and then never having the chance to let it out. So if I noticed that I had been thinking about a situation too much, I started talking about it. I definitely noticed a difference in myself; even if things didn't turn out the way I wanted them to, I felt better. I felt relieved knowing that I had tried to make things different.
I've also spilled my heart out to people and they've said nothing. Maybe they literally didn't have a response. Feelings were building up inside of me to the point that I had to verbalize them just to make myself feel better. I didn't care if I changed the situation or the other person's mind. I just knew it would have driven me crazy if I didn't say something. So I did. I don't regret it at all; i'm glad I spoke my mind.
What bothers me the most are the times that I didn't say enough; I often think about what would have happened if I had been honest and said what was on my mind. I don't want to spend my life analyzing the past. I would rather say everything I need to say, just for the sake of making myself feel better. To me, saying too much shows that I've made an effort instead of just letting the moment pass by.
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